I want to contribute
To a Titanic shift at Caritas Egypt
In which empathy and surrender
The main modes of interaction.
In that totally different world,
We can solve challenges in a heartbeat –
The kind of challenges
About which we now fight forever.
I know, of course,
That heaven on earth,
Includes disagreements and frustrations –
I pray that again and again
We learn to accept this,
While acknowledging with a tender smile,
That, of course,
We would have liked heaven without pain.
I pray that I never give up my dreams,
Nor act as if we achieved them
While in reality we really didn’t.
God safe me
From ever selling sweet little lies.
My heart cries at the huge difference
Between what I long for
And what I see,
And at the doubt,
Whether anybody else glimpses
The same mountain I long to climb.
I pray that I learn to surrender
To the pain of having no control
Whether our dreams come true or not,
Just like we cannot own heaven.
I pray that I learn to love
All people along the way,
While not watering down my dreams,
Nor my honesty
That our destination is painfully far,
Our cross painfully heavy.
Heaven is that moment
When we no longer resent
That the road is eternal.
That in Egypt and from Egypt,
I learn about borders and separation,
About the simultaneous existence
Of dreams and heartbreak,
Allowing them so deep in my heart
That I feel the underlying connection,
So that I become a tool
For Titanic, tangible shifts in interaction.
In the coming years
You will see my tears
Which I hope to shed for the benefit of both of us.
Today I feel like shouting in the dark,
Where nobody hears me –
Tomorrow I hope to see,
That we were always in this together.
Diederik, Cairo 6th April 2016